~~Shooting for the Moon~~
K la, Pool won.
Anyway to carry on with the story.
The Orientation:
I remembered the 1st night, we did a precamp thing. To prepare for the freshies. It was raining that night. It was quite a good night. I stayed up to help her finish the ribbons and I gave her a massage cuz she looked super tired. Uh, it was also the first time we spent the night together. (With ppl arnd us of cuz!!) It was damn sweet, cuz the feeling of a loved 1 sleeping by ur side, well, now did I understand wad happiness is. However, the next morning, something happened. She did not talk to me and when she did, it was perfunctory.
What happened? I had no idea.
So.. wad the hell? The days passed and still she did not respond. In fact, I rarely got to see her. And when I did, she responded like a stranger. I felt weird. I felt like I was in love with a stranger. Her gaze was strangely accusing. Cold even. I tried to ask her but she said nothing was wrong. Like a dog and I mean a dog, I followed her, desperately trying to know wad I had done wrng. The last night was a clubbing night at Coyote Ugly. I sat in the coach, and I could feel tears trickling dwn my cheeks. I was totally bewildered. What is it? Did I say something wrong? The more I thought, the sadder I became. I tot that maybe it'll be ok once we got there. We would dance together and perhaps, everything will be ok again.
It didn't really happen that way. She told me irritably that she like to club alone when she saw me beside her. So me and bro Qi went out of the club (I'm not really into clubbing). He listened to me pouring out my frustrations. As u can imagine, by then I was really affected. It hit a breaking point. ME and her left for school at about the same time. Despite knowing I was sad(Hell the whole world can see it) she told me that she was going back with her own friends. I went back with Qi in a cab and I asked to be dropped at the science bus stop. I couldn't stop myself from crying. Yeah, I know guys shldn't cry. But at that time, I couldn't give a damn about the world anymore. For 3 days, she had virtually ignored me and I couldn't take the pain and puzzlement. It was ok if she was sad abt Fred, but I wanted her to tell me what the heck was going on. I smsed her to meet me at the engine bridge. She was tired she replied. God damn it, I told her, stop avoiding me! Finally she told me to wait for her at Temasek Hall bus stop. She was sending another friend of mine back to eusoff. He was drunk apparently. I was wondering, he had at least 3 ppl helping him, without her, they will still be able to cope. Why is she insisting on being with them when she knew something was amiss?
I walked over to Temasek, and the cool night air calmed me down somewhat. When I saw her sitting at the bus stop, I resolved to keep my cool. I asked her politely what happened and did she not see that I knew she was avoiding me? At first, she denied it. I then took out the baby sock( we used socks as our hp pouchs. Now u know y I still carry them abt.) she gave me. I told her that if she was serious about us, she better behave as such. I told her its no point acting like a couple if she didn't want to put in the effort. The exact happenings is quite lost to me. I was in a daze and I had drunk abit. She was sullen at 1st, but slowly she told me its cuz she did not feel comfy sleeping together. I told her, if that is so, I won't press her. We'll sleep seperately from then on. Turns out that Fred and her shared a really long history together and she was thinking abt him after the 1st night. I told her, I'd put in 110% effort and I just want her to try. As long as she tried I'm satisfied.
I remembered the Kimchi noodles she made for me a few days before the camp and I decided that perhaps she really didn't mean to make me sad. So we made up and thats the end of this chapter. But already, the seeds that were to breed discord were already sowed.
The Chawamushi:
For her, I knew she liked chawamushi so I made it a point to learn it for her. For ppl who think its just steamed egg, well, there is sake and bonito stock to be added. Anyway, I remembered the 1st chawamushi I made for her had sharks fin in it. Lol, and scallops. I only wanted the best for her. I tried to find the fish cake she liked, but to no avail. I borrowed a recipe book and went to her place to cook for her. You know, again, I felt the happiness. We were like husband and wife, I was doing the cooking, she doing the encouraging haha. She looked soo cute with her specs perched on her small nose, her eyes were sparkling with mirth as she watched me bustle around the kitchen. Hey what do u know? It was quite successful! We steamed the egg for 20 min over a really slow fire. And there was the smooth surface u see in restaurant-level chawamushi. Haha, she was so happy and I can recall her clapping her hands in delight. She is so innocent and adorable.
The things she did:
She did cook a few things for me. The kimchi noodles! God, it was the first time a ger cooked me food! (Besides my mum, but mums are asexual anyway.) I had to go to work that day and I dropped by her house. This was before the orientation. I fell alseep on her bed. She was typing a book for her professor.( She is a dean's lister) I had no idea she was going to cook for me. But she woke me up abt 15 mins before I had to go. She was about to pounce on me when horror, I heard something crack. It was my freaking spectacles! I had left them on her floor and she accidentally stepped on them. I had the noodles while she tried to fix them for me. Her brow was furrowed as she tried to screw the nail back in. But as it turned out, the frame itself was broken. I had to get a new frame and I had to work! The new frame costed me $70 and I was thus late for work. (it was the 3 mths break) But all I felt was the warmth inside. Jiali would cook me soup too, with ham added in. Campbell mushroom soup thus became my fav soup. =)
Ok to be cont, I am damn tired le la
~} Moonshine
Rion